The Heart of a Woman

The Heart of a Woman

Montreal … the city where I came into this world. Canada has always felt like a foreign land for my soul. For some reason, I never understood and always questioned why I was born here. Dreaming of adventures by foot, walking this earth continent by continent, searching for something and never really knowing what it was. 



On this journey, I got familiar with having no roots, moving, being a nomad, being content wherever I put down my bags, my things, my body. I saw through the eyes of many cultures a piece of my own world, a face reflecting mine. Whenever it would touch a deeper part of myself, I would feel I retrieved something and then felt a call to move on, to continue this quest with no goals. 


Why was I feeling so much at peace having no home, having nowhere to go back to, only having something to look forward to just across the horizon? Will this search lead me somewhere or am I simply avoiding something ? On the traveler’s road, we often say that nomads are running away from something by always moving. Yet I also see sedentary people avoiding themselves by putting their head in the sand with regards to the unknown. What is it that pulls some people so far away, on a planet so vast, so diverse in experiences. I always wondered if this quest would have an end. 



I eventually landed somewhere, in Bali, where I felt like making a nest, a cocoon. I wouldn’t say a home, but a cocoon. A place that gives the impression of being home, but in reality, relies on transformation. The purpose of a cocoon is not to settle into the familiar but to push you through a transformation that will be just as painful as it is liberating. It is an encouragement to go towards something that will be better for you once you are out of it, yet with no guarantee of success. A journey of vulnerability within, to become more powerful once out. 


To me, it is akin to birth. Leaving the comfort of the fluid gravitational cocoon and being naturally pushed to the next stage of growth. Perhaps I needed to finish this process I started coming into this world. Maybe I needed to change the way I experienced how I landed into this world. 



For me, I was told I came slightly too early out of the womb, if there is such thing as right timing. Perhaps I was curious to visit this planet, maybe I was excited to experience this world. Yes, I recognize that in myself. When my heart opens up and blooms, it is a rather quick process and at times may be surprisingly fast. Otherwise I tend to be a rather shy and meticulous person when it comes to new experiences. Yet, when my heart is touched, I seem to jump off the bridge not knowing whether the bungee cord was even attached. Perhaps it was my window, my timing, my rhythm.



Basically, I know what I want, even though, sometimes, the world doesn’t seem to respond well to those arriving too early. I didn’t realize my lungs weren’t finished forming. Ai … what a painful start. The world has laws of physics I wasn’t ready to comply with. Story of my life. The space of the lungs limiting the space of the heart. So the pain is felt everytime my heart opens up. 


And so it’s true, I do repeat this pattern from time to time. 



Bali has been a rough ride. It has allowed me to study the reflection of my entrance into this world. The painful limitation of a body with a spirit that cannot wait to express fully my love and joy. It’s as if there is not enough time in one lifetime. Not enough space in my body for all this love.  


The irony of life seems to be that we must discover who we are, even though we are already all that we seek. We tend to learn who we are through the opposite-- dark defines light and the night defines the day. A simple reflection in the mirror or through the lens of a selfie is of great help but can only reflect one face of our self, it won’t show us what we are not. Without our opposite, we cannot see ourselves fully. It is through others, or through seeking the opposite of our essence that we learn to define the self and our limits. Yet it’s important to recognize those limits so we don’t end up trying to change our true nature to be accepted or loved. In simple terms, I was like a banana trying to be a strawberry.


Home is a peaceful rest in one’s own essence, without having to change anything to become who we ought to be. The apple doesn’t fall far from the tree. What I was looking for wasn’t as far as I thought, even though the road to get there took me across the globe a few times around. 



I now see that changing what I didn’t like in myself wasn’t going to help me accept who I am. But simple acceptance itself, changed the way I relate to myself.  I’ve made the commitment to be in full integrity with respect to the rhythm of my essence; to let my soul land in my body. I’ve allowed myself to come home to my heart in simple and deep surrender. Only then can I let another person land in my heart. 


To be matched truly by an equal rhythm. Like attuning musical instruments. Like whales responding to the echo of another under the sea. Attuning oneself to another. Everything about the other can be different than you, but just like the right key, the essence of that heart attuned the core of mine in the rightful tone. Just like pitching forks, or the principles of homeopathy, like cures like. Immediate calibration through the heart’s resonance and the rest of the body comes home. 



Letting what matches you be your match. It is the quest of all homeopaths, to find THE remedy, the closest frequency to your core. Perhaps like a twin resonance somewhere in this universe. For some of us, it is in a pearl at the bottom of the sea, for others, a distant star. In a remote location or in the ink of a skilled writer, or perhaps even, it is to be found in the gaze of a soul mate, a lover’s deep surrender and the forever deepening space emerging from that presence. 

letting touch

Consciously letting yourself be touched by your match is the subtle difference. Allowing, rather than seeking. This is the key.


I’ve searched for who I wasn’t. That is why I learned so much living across the colourful spectrum of cultures, land and people. Making a nest anywhere is possible, and is going to bring you amazing growth and experiences. Yet home isn’t something we can make with our will only, it is something we feel when it finds us. Some people are born at home and always felt it. Not for me. Home is something that came back to me after a rebirth that took years, and ironically, it found me in the same city where I started this life. 

A sense of emerging is appearing within me, a sense of commitment to being here. In nature, the heart chakra has 12 petals of wisdom to bloom within a lifetime. This process is one of them. A deeply intimate process that gives birth to an energy meant for two, a home for you and another. Yet one resonance uniting the field. 


I see it, I feel it unfolding within my chest, like the rich density of the dark night about to break open by the rising light of dawn.


It is so shocking to realize your lost keys were in your own pocket the whole time. 


My life looks like the one of a galactic backpacker searching across timelines for a place to be, finding myself through what I am not, and by a random coincidence, hitchhiking a ride that would bring me back to where I was born. Yet the journey it took me on is one of unforgettable insights into the nature of human consciousness.

A journey through the cosmic divine feminine. Born from my mother and reborn from mother earth. From the heart of a woman, to a womb, to a cocoon, to the heart of a woman. 


As we unfold in the womb, we hear the sound of the heartbeat of our mother from the third week already. It is pulsing, guiding our journey until our own heart joins the symbiosis. While we live, we are guided by the pulse of our own heart with the echo of the memory of our mother’s heart, in harmony with the pulse of the goddess, of mother earth, deep down within or somewhere far in the universe. 

The heart of a woman is one of the most precious fields I have ever witnessed. A place of infinite devotion. Relentless nurturing for all beings. A fertility of magic. Love beyond Love. The heart of a woman will constantly teach me a new way to love and be loved.  A quest to recreate the world one night at a time. A quest for depth like the roots of a Banyan tree. 


To all women. Thank you for this precious gift. 

A woman’s womb gives space to birth a new life, a woman’s heart gives space to birth a new man. To make a man reborn. 


The space between two hearts gives rise to a womb of light. 


Make it sacred.  

With Love


my dear mother …

my dear mother …


Vaidika a prayerful life and the pursuit of Moksha

Vaidika a prayerful life and the pursuit of Moksha

A glimpse at our photoshoot with Sharada immersed in the beauty of Bali 


You can find Sharada's website at this link

Waves of time

Waves of time

It’s not a coincidence why I ended up where I am. I work with memories in all forms and ways.

Photography has all to do with immortalizing a powerful moment into something that will defy time. Like a recollection of what my body has felt into a visual sculpture of time.

Astrology, another of my passions, has all to do with the passage of time experienced through various cycles. Imprints held in shape, and dissolved by planetary dynamics.

Meditation and healing, allowing past memories to surface, making peace through acceptance of what has occurred, with awareness – something that is available to us only in the present moment. Freeing memories we carry inside ourselves holding back our further growth. The suffering of others reminds me of mine, so as of the collective, perhaps why I feel so called to use my hands and reach out.

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A 10 years retrospective

A 10 years retrospective

... From that moment, I knew my only option was the path that nobody had mapped for me, that only I could create. I call this “the path of the self”. A walk only you can choose to take. You may encounter guidance along the way, but every step you make is on your own. Every step further in the unknown is a step you cannot walk back. What you may discover is a whole lot of unfounded fears and unexplored emotions, waiting to be mastered into a strength that will stabilize an inner authority, which will fulfill emotional maturity. Only then the Gods can reveal their secrets. This is where I found myself. This is my path, not only what I do with my life but what is being done through me.

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May we never forget

May we never forget

She’s always been beautiful I must say … but this time especially so … There is a life inside her, a spirit awakening to its existence … Yet it is still swimming, perhaps unaware of it … Swimming in the primal waters of where we all come from. It makes her smile in ways only a women will ever feel … it makes me happy to see her like this. I see a love that beautify everything around … I’ve seen two of my sister’s pregnancy and each time, a beauty emerged from within themselves. If all men could witness this subtle shift, perhaps it would remind us of what we used to fight for, protecting this sacred space, where life arises out of love.

May we never forget … Earth, women, nature … where life arises out of love

Inspiring …



We have no scar to show for happiness

We have no scar to show for happiness


Cyprus, an ancient land. Walking among it’s people, the fresh wound is palpable in the concrete walls of Nicosia city. The streets carry a myst once perceived during the war. In the gaze of it’s people there is a sorrow. An invisible sorrow. One that isn’t felt in the flesh, but in the abyss of the psyche. A forgotten warmth, as if too long ago. Thousands of years of history has vanished in the wake of a modern conflict, dividing it’s future and what it stands for. Nicosia, the last divided capital of the world, reminds each of us of the power of scars. Scars are always left by pain, while peace and happiness leaves no trace of it’s passage in time. 

We have no scar to show for happiness
— Chuck Palahniuk

Revenge is easily justified by wounds, sorrow, loss and grief, most would understand. While a good deed is often forgotten like tracing a line on the surface of water. Loss, grief, pain, all densified layers of emotions, unexpressed and unhealed, becomes crystallized memories, leaving an imprint through time. Civilizations are built amongst the ruins of another, remembering it’s origin and building upon it’s foundation, so as we, new generations, define ourselves in the context of our cultural history, our emotional landscape sculpted by the memories of our ancestors.


Conflicts reminds us of the suffering we’ve known, inviting us to consciously move past deeply rooted reactions and envision a creative outcome. Instead of letting our wounds speak through aggressive actions, how can we harness the power of peace, and use it to fuel future compassionate actions.

Nicosia may be the last officially divided capital, yet we all know it isn’t the only place where history has left it’s people divided from one another. In places like theses, a wave of people is awakening, understanding than only through their own personal healing will there be a chance for collective healing.

In memory of such courage, I honour you, those who face the shadow of their past, rising together for a new future, as unknown as it may be.

Cyprus, thank you for the teachings

Jean-Manuel Nadeau

A year of the unexpected

A year of the unexpected

A year of the unexpected

2013 has been a great year for reaching out and making the steps towards living a life that closely resembles a dream or a few dreams normally sleeping in the back of my awareness, as if only accessible in the realm of ideas and imagination.  It is easy to think those are not possible to manifest, either because of the limitations we feel in this dimension, like time and space for example, or because of other limitations like money and accessibility.

These limitations only exist because of our own pre conceived ideas of how we think we are supposed to achieve our dreams or when we think we have figured out the steps to take in order to reach them.

Our inability to simply let the unknown draw the map for us and surrendering to the step to face right in front of us, even if it seems to be going in the opposite direction, is often what keeps us on one side of the veil between the present reality and a dream. Dreams are not bound by the same laws of physics, therefore can manifest themselves in surprising ways.

This year I got my own perception of limitations tested. Nothing I was trying to create would spark into manifestation. I would be so focused on what I wanted to achieve that I would try and make it happen the way I thought was supposed to happen, even if it didn’t feel like the right time, as if trying to grow seeds in winter.

Only when we hit a wall, we come to realize that in order to create something, there must be a certain harmony with the rest of creation that surrounds us … only then can we see an underlying truth, that we are not living in a world where things exist independently from the rest.  We can make our way in the illusion that we control our life, our direction, our goals and our lifestyle, only to a certain extent.

Money helps to fortify that illusion, that we can survive independently of the whole, or that we can force a process upon a natural flow. Our present day society has plenty of examples where we can witness this – food processing for example, or over extracting natural resources inevitably at the expense of something else.

Indigenous cultures were aware of these dynamics.  Not only in their connection to nature but in their understanding of the journey of human life, knowing that each of us has come here to manifest a unique journey and live it as an unfolding dream. Although for most of us the word ‘dream’ is usually associated with sleep state, for the ancient, it was a conscious process to create and manifest a particular reality following the laws of nature.

Reality is unfolding constantly like a quantum fountain.  The conscious part of our brain identifies and maps only what it can process and creates the belief that it’s the only reality available, that there are no other possibilities. Only when we let go, when we surrender to the underlying dynamics of nature, will it actually surprise us.

This age of information can be tricky, leaving less and less room for the unknown.

We really have no idea of where we are heading, only some brief desires or inspiration that spontaneously drives our next moves, directions or experiences. An illusion of a meaning to our collective direction and adding ourselves to a timeline of events as if we are building something or going somewhere.

On a collective level, we keep on patching, improving and fixing what doesn’t work as if we know how things are supposed to be, yet not really knowing why it is like that. I was asking myself, do we know where we are going ? Do we go this direction because of a choice or we continue to build upon a direction that has been chosen a very long time ago, based on different values and a different state of consciousness.

On an individual level, the same questions was surfacing, whether my present actions reflects a vision I have for my future.

It is easy to imagine our future based on what we already know about life or a model we wish to replicate. But what if the answer resides in the unknown? What if we need to let go of theses models or ideas we have about how things should be in order for another possibility to emerge.

This year I was experiencing this for myself.  All plans and linear directions I imagined I was going to undertake had turned out into dead ends.  Only then I was forced to step one, just be, letting go, and, like the indigenous cultures, let nature take over.

I was then pushed into experiences that made me see that the answers I sought were not based on any information I previously had.  None of my previous experiences could have prepared me to imagine what I was about to experience.  It forced me to think differently – choosing ‘unknown’ area of life to step into – rather than choosing what I think are the available options.  It is far more challenging but somehow rewarding.

This curiosity I have for life has been renewed, just in a time when I was caught thinking that perhaps I’ve experienced everything there is to experience. Quite obviously, I was wrong.

And like that, I embarked on a 5 months journey to Singapore, Turkey, Sweden and Japan, with no idea of what would come about, solely on a vision emerging from a dream … a dream I have about going where I feel inspired, trusting that there will be a network of people to share of myself and learn from others. That who we are is the currency of trade, and the wisdom gained from our path is useful for others. Our next direction being revealed in it’s own time.

When we stop to consciously make our way in the world, as if knowing where we are going, life takes over, and moves us where we are supposed to be, naturally finding ourselves into the very dream we originally had.

The future is all about possibilities and the only thing there is to do is creating space for the unknown.

With love,

Happy New Year 2013

Happy New Year 2013

Looking back, before moving forward

For some years now, I have been quiet with regards to email, news and photography updates. After many years traveling across the Americas and Asia, I settled in Bali in early 2007 and almost disappeared off the map for nearly six years. Disconnecting from the fast rhythm of time has been rewarding and as a result, a deep immersion into the realms of the body-mind complex have led me to some surprising discoveries about the nature of existence and the art of healing.

About a year ago, in the early days of 2012, I found that photography entered my awareness again and re-captured my attention in a new way. A desire to renew my website and bring a fresh look to this fascinating art manifested itself.

I have never stopped taking pictures and it is time to start sharing those with you once again.

Instead of sending emails to everyone, I have gathered all of you, friends, family, fellow travellers, clients, beautiful encounters and mysterious strangers onto this mailing list. If you wish not to receive theses messages you can unsubscribe very easily at the bottom of this email.


These newsletters are intended to share images of my travels that speak to our universal soul. We are all living on a different corner of this planet and yet images of our world speak to us  as if we’ve been there before or we’ve met with those with whom we exchange a look. I hope  these moments touch you as deeply as I felt when each of these images were taken.

2012 has been full of surprising opportunities. From Bali to Alaska, Singapore, Canada, New York, Paris, Venice and the French Alps, I have been blessed by friends, clients and new connections and with the chance to witness absolutely gorgeous scenery and capture some beautiful images to share with all of you.

The world of photography is changing rapidly nowadays, not only does everyone now have a camera on them, but the quality of equipment, previously reserved for professionals, is now in everyone’s pocket. Photography is an art that is now quickly becoming a form of communication for all. Thanks to iPhone, instagram and social media, the way we see photography has completely changed. These images, excessively modified by filters, previously disregarded or ignored by the masses, and considered an altered form of  reality, are  now a popular artform followed by millions and accessible to all. As a photographer, whether we like it or not, we can choose to resist or adapt to these changes.

In 2012, I decided to explore this art of ‘iPhotography’, inspired and intrigued by many friends’ artistic touch and vision unveiled by the unique nature of these squared images. I discovered that iPhone photography is very different from professional photography. Obviously there is a clear difference in skills and technical functionality, but the artistic essence unveiled by instagram shots is a new, redefined artistic category compared to other forms of photography. What is beautiful through an iPhone lens is not necessary going to be appealing viewed from a professional lens and the same is true in reverse. iPhone photography will never extinguish other forms of photography, it is an emergent art, creating and inspiring new forms of artistic expressions. Some photographers won’t have the eye for both, and some will discover a new side of their inner artist and have a camera in one hand and an iPhone in the other !

I have just got back to Bali, my home, where I will be preparing new galleries and another series of updates to my website. In the meantime, below is a glimpse of what I have seen through the iPhone lens and a teaser of the galleries that will become available as we move further into 2013.

Stay tuned for my next newsletter!